Today, the world lost someone
truly special. Her name was Anne Wolff.
Anne was not my mother, my
aunt, or even genetically related to me in any sort of way. She was, however, family in a different, less
tangible way – the family of my heart.
You know, the family that consists of members that you pick up along
life’s journey, the ones that you choose, that are not genetically
predetermined. And so while my grief
tonight is by no means as overwhelming and wrenching as the grief of her immediate,
biological family, my heart aches just the same over the loss of this amazing
soul.
It’s hard to find the words
to describe the special person that Anne was – and that, in and of itself, is
telling. Anne was always too busy
learning and exploring, listening and engaging others, to worry about silly
things like labels. She wore a great
many hats - mother, daughter, aunt, teacher, scientist, biologist, cook,
chauffeur, Girl Scout troop leader, Science Olympiad and History Day group
leader, Vacation Bible School director -
but to me, she was simply a friend.
And when I say friend, I mean it in the best of ways, because Anne was
the kind of friend that would drop just about everything to help you if she
could. She was the kind of friend that
made you realize that it was ok to laugh at yourself sometimes and the kind of
friend that you could always count on in a pinch. She was the kind of friend
that could make you laugh even in your darkest moods with one of her corny
jokes (“How do you make a whore moan [hormone]?” she once asked my anatomy
& physiology class during a lecture on the endocrine system. The answer was not scientific…“You don’t PAY
her!”) She was the kind of friend who
could go for months/years without seeing you and still pick up conversations
with an ease and familiarity that suggested that you had never really been gone
at all. But most important of all, she was the kind of friend (and person) that
understood that the investments that paid out the highest dividends were the
investments made in people, not things – and in this, Anne was an investor of
the highest form. She began investing in my life somewhere around the time that I turned 6...and I truly hope that at some point, her dividend was worth the amount of energy that she expended on me over the years.
Anne was my emergency contact
for many years, mostly because my parents had deep and well-placed faith in
her. If I were ever in trouble and my
own parents could not be reached, they knew without a doubt that they could
count on Anne to care for me and about me with nearly as much attention and
warmth as they could give themselves.
It is no small thing to trust the care of your child to someone else but they knew that Anne could be trusted.
I, too, placed my faith in Anne many times throughout the years,
including the time during my teenage years where I took an (illegal) joyride in my father’s blue
International that ended, tragically, with several dented neighborhood
mailboxes and a ugly dent/scrape down the side of the vehicle. In panic, I called Anne (it never occurred to
me to call anyone else) and Anne came up the hill with rather stunning alacrity…
firstly to ascertain that I was unhurt, and secondly, to help me realize that
my plan to cover over the scrape with blue Sharpie marker was simply not
feasible. Her patience and wisdom when dealing with distraught, melodramatic teenaged girls was nothing short of heroic.
Many of my childhood memories
revolve around Anne – the sleepovers that ended up with Sarah and I slumbering
next to her in her great big waterbed, exhausted after having stayed up late to
watch Saturday Night Live. The evening I
learned, somewhere around the age of 10, that the phrase, “I’m pregnant,” did NOT, in
fact, mean that I was deadly serious about something (I’m glad Anne cleared
that one up before it got out of hand!) The
Thanksgivings and Christmases that our families shared together, air redolent
with laughter and friendship. The hot
summers that Sarah and I spent together digging for dinosaur bones in the
backyard while munching on snow peas freshly plucked from Anne’s small
vegetable plot. The summer that Anne, Sarah, Shana and I walked a portion of the Mormon Trail because it would give to us a deeper historical perspective of the Mormon faith, though none of us were Mormon. The murder mystery birthday parties that almost always featured Anne wearing a brightly colored Mexican poncho and sombrero, head thrown back in laughter as she attempted a Spanish accent (and somehow, she always managed to sound vaguely Russian). The New Year’s Eve
parties full of friends and never-ending games of Star Wars Monopoly. The pre-teen forays into filmmaking that
ended badly for the beloved classroom plant of an elementary school
teacher. The early childhood days full
of shaving cream creations and Barbie dolls and dress-up from a closet full of
never-ending clothing options and costume jewelry. The innumerable early morning History Day and
Science Fair and Science Olympiad and Girl Scout troop camping trips and the accompanying jokes and laughter. The rather graphic
video of a woman giving birth that still haunts me to this day and did a
wonderful job of preventing unwanted pregnancies among our Girl Scout troop. (And on a related note - sorry,
Mom, but almost everything I knew about sex by the time I turned 18, I learned
from some very frank discussions with Anne and Sarah).
As a professor of science at
the local community college, Anne introduced me to science and brought it to
life in a way only a truly skilled educator can. Under her tutelage, I learned the
complexities of anatomy and physiology (learned on no fewer than 3 unfortunate, formaldehyde-drenched felines), how to mix basic household ingredients to produce colored slime and moldable play-doh, and exactly why you should never put your mouth directly on the spout of a public water fountain (we cultured the fountain outside of her LCCC office for fun). She was the first person to introduce me to a microscope as a child, and
I still remember the amount of time she dedicated to making sure that I saw how exciting looking at the microscopic world could be, how there was a whole world that existed beyond the capabilities of the naked eye. She forced me to expand my mind and to question the world around me, but
mostly, she taught me to love science.
This love has stood me in good stead as a physician. When it was time to pick a medical specialty,
pathology was the easy and natural choice – where else could I utilize the
microscope skills I had learned so long ago?
More than once, I have gazed through the lens of the microscope at
a microorganism or tissue specimen and thought of Anne fondly before returning
to my diagnostic task. I have a career
that I {mostly} love based on skills I picked up long ago – and while I might have
eventually found my way into pathology, I know that Anne, in her own special way, lent me a tremendous helping
hand.
There is so much more that I
could say about this wonderful woman who helped to shape my childhood, and I am fortunate that my memories of her are plentiful. But above all else I could say, I will say this: I mourn the loss of Anne. I mourn the loss of one of my earliest
mentors. I mourn the loss of one of my
earliest and most constant friends. But
mostly, I mourn the loss of one of the most special women I have ever known. Anne was loving and kind, generous and witty,
intelligent and passionate, vivacious and extraordinary. People like Anne are rare; they are a once-in-a-lifetime
kind of find – a jackpot in the lottery of life. And with friends like Anne – who needs the
winning PowerBall ticket, anyway?
And while these kinds of
goodbyes are difficult, I know that they are not forever. One day, I will see my friend again. So until that day arrives, here’s to you,
Anne, with love, respect, and gratitude.
